raakelh replied to your post: raakelh replied to your post: also Mitsunari in…

Alright, thank you. I think I somewhat see what you mean. This would indeed make a good fic, I can sort of picture it. Motochika, I suppose…yes…

I WAS WRITING THAT PORN, I wrote like half a draft of that porn but it got sort of subsumed in the whole hypothetical longfic of no really what do you mean by “do what you want with me.” If I manage to write it that can be the really pornographic postscript.

I think Motochika is the best option too, tag rant about Hideyoshi and Hanbei notwithstanding. Ieyasu would love to out of the best possible motivations because he thinks it’s hot and fun and kind of relaxing and he wants Mitsunari to like it too. But it’s a recipe for disaster because Mitsunari is taking it so much more seriously than he realizes and even when Hideyoshi’s alive and Mitsunari is coming to trust Ieyasu he doesn’t understand his motivations at all, and the thought of being under his control like that is deeply unsettling. I have to admit I’m pretty interested in how that would turn out too though, because it might be really hot sex that precipitates an emotional disaster. But no if you want a relatively good idea, than Motochika. Definitely Motochika. I’m really glad Mitsunari had ever met somebody who’s not a bad idea, even if he makes a really awful pirate

datekougyous replied to your post: also Mitsunari in bondage I think has like a 95%…

the 5% is with Hideyoshi and Hanbei because he’s been a good boy

HOLY SHIT WOULD YOU BELIEVE THIS HAS SERIOUSLY NOT OCCURRED TO ME BEFORE

BUT NOW THAT THAT NEGLIGENCE HAS BEEN RECTIFIED I AM GOING TO GIVE THE MATTER THE METICULOUS CONSIDERATION IT DESERVES

raakelh replied to your post: also Mitsunari in bondage I think has like a 95%…

Do elaborate, please o_o

Oh what a terrible hardship but if you insist XD

He’s not really comfortable with the concept, it takes a lot to even get him willing to try it at all rather than taking it as an indication that at best that you don’t trust him. It takes a lot of trust for him to be okay with it, less because he fears he’ll be harmed than because it’s hard for him to understand his partner’s intentions, and when he has that doubt it’s sort of setting him up to react poorly.

Then once he gets there it’s physically and emotionally an experience that he doesn’t know how to deal with. He’s used to moving, to doing things - he is a huge sub and I maintain this as a fact, but it’s in a very active way, he wants to make himself useful. When he’s tied up and having things done to him he feels like he doesn’t know what to do with himself, all of his stupid levels of hyperfocus are left just to experience things. And like that is something he basically doesn’t do, this is a guy who forgets to eat and sleeps when he falls down from exhaustion, he doesn’t know how to experience his body other than as a tool. So it’s way more intense than what’s being done to him on its own would warrant, and likely more than his partner expects - this is especially the case if you tie him up and do nice things to him, because one expects pain to be intense but he doesn’t know how to deal with either - and he doesn’t understand what’s happening so he can’t explain it (and likely wouldn’t if he could, he won’t ask for allowances to be made for his weakness as he sees it).

But the thing is he absolutely does trust that much, he’s capable of it and he wants to desperately even though he doesn’t feel like he can or should. And he loves the aspect of it that’s control, that is legitimately what he wants, so when he trusts someone enough to accept that kind of intensity from them it’s sort of an incredible experience to have his body so directly in their hands. But to get to the place where he can feel that and enjoy it he has to be totally committed to it, not just to enduring because that’s what he ought to but to offering everything on a level that he didn’t realize that he had to offer. It’s intense enough for him that it’s that much of an all or nothing thing. And he desperately wants to do that, which is what makes it amazing.

also Mitsunari in bondage I think has like a 95% chance of him freaking out until he gets out and then it’s violent, but the other 5% would be fucking amazing

nobody ever needs to be alone in their Toyotomi feels

digivolvin:

love stories about monsters are THE BEST because the idea of conceptualizing love in a way that is not human and fundamentally cannot be human and is AN ENTIRELY SEPARATE LEVEL FROM THE HUMAN is so great. 

made better when one half of the relationship ishuman and suddenly we’re dealing with a) a human learning to love like a monster or b) a monster learning to translate their love into human terms and that’s

the best thing

to me.

which often goes hand in hand with MONSTER TRYING TO HUMANIZE THEMSELVES but that’s.. not necessary, don’t worry monster, you don’t need to do that. your capacity for love does not need to be whittled and softened into a human shape. it’s okay. your heart can be brutal and all consuming. you will learn to cope and you will learn to funnel it, pieces at a time, into something conceivable and measurable to the human mind. 

and i don’t strictly mean monster monsters because there’s room here for divinity (alpha and omega, first and last, holy terror OF THE HEART. apocalypses OF FEELING.) or ghosts, or non-human, non-monster outliers (superheroes, androids, idek), or even human beings who are self-made monsters and whose expression and understanding of love is two steps removed and two shades off. 

but, you know what i mean. 

love stories about monsters.

raakelh replied to your post: my wig head is having an identity crisis

Oooo, precise cutting work there. Do you have anime purple contacts, and whatever Ja’far has, or clear ones?

Nah, just the clear ones, I’m too new with contacts to have thought that far ahead. I only got my prescription finalized like a couple weeks ago now so maybe I’ll do it for future ones

Thanks! ^____^ I can’t get enough talking about my headcanons so I’m glad they’re enjoyable~